I crave writing to you all like this and I hope you missed me because I missed you, lol! I have so much to say today and I'm not sure where to start. I've had a lot of different things happen this past week. Okay first, I was getting up to take my dad to dialysis last week and boom, I fell! It didn't take me 5 seconds to get up off that hard concrete floor lol. But in those 5 seconds, something happened and I started laughing because normally I throw a pity party. You know, why me syndrome! This time on my way standing up I realized that in life you can fall down but it's what you do after the fall that makes the difference. I know I'm different, but I really had all that go through my mind at that time. I stumbled and tripped over something but I chose to laugh and at that moment I reminded the enemy that he may trip me up sometimes but I'm still going to land on my feet because they are planted firmly in the ground. Hold on, let me shout!!

Okay, now that I'm done with my praise dance let's get down to business. She (that would be me) has lost, drum roll please..............30 lbs!!!!!!! I promise you it's the hardest thing I've ever done and that includes giving birth naturally with no pain medicine (I know I'm pretty strong huh!). I still have a very lonnnnggg way to go but I was so happy to see that the small yet profound changes I have made are finally paying off. I am completely in love with myself lol!! I know it sounds so superficial and conceded but hey if you don't love yourself how can you expect anyone else too? I have a few all natural supplements that have changed my life and are really helping my efforts in burning fat. I'm no doctor so I can't officially give any medical advice and I won't, but if you are curious just email me and I'll divulge what's working for me.

I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and it feels strange. I feel like I'm discovering myself all over again. I've decided to dream with my eyes open this time. I've had them closed for too long. Afraid to live because I was afraid to be hurt or fail. I no longer have that fear. If they said it was impossible then I've proven them wrong. If they said I couldn't do it then they have been proven wrong as well. I have for my entire life taken what people "said I couldn't do" and did it. It's my M/O! It energizes me. I, along with many others who truly love me have said the only thing holding me back is my weight. Not anymore! I no longer will allow this weight to be a crutch of safety. I will simply achieve whatever goals I want to right now while I'm in the process to repositioning my life.

My entire life structure is changing. My thoughts are no longer the same. I'm a new creature emerging from the dust and mar. I've suited up for battle and I'm ready for war but this time I'm not fighting against myself. I'm fighting for myself! We all have dreams and ambitions I just hope you aren't sitting back waiting for "one day" to come. Make that day today and follow your passion or dream! I'll leave you with this quote from Albert Einstein "There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."