This is the story of my life. I've prepared and set myself up for so much in life but I never get out of the gate. I had to realize that I'm the reason that my success or happiness has been halted. What am I so afraid of? You can't really be successful being fearful. I mean sure, you can be a little nervous but fearful is in a category of it's own. I'm learning day by day to never hold onto anything, even my dreams. I know it sounds strange. People, including me are always saying hold onto your dreams. The quickest way to get anything in life is to let it go. It does you no good to hold onto anything especially a dream or desire. So with this in mind I've released my dreams and deepest hearts desire to see what it can bring me in life. Am I scared? Sure I am, but with my knees shaking and hands sweaty lol, I'm going to live out my desires.
I've had to stop haphazardly waiting for blessings that I "thought" I wanted; to just happen. I had really convinced myself that I had done everything right. When really I haven't been real clear on what exactly I want or how to get it. I knew what it would feel like when I received it. I was sure of this. I knew that I wanted to be happy and spread the happiness with everyone I could. I knew all of this, but what was it that I wanted to do? What exactly was going to bring me this happiness, wealth, and joy I sought? I had no idea and this is what happens to us all. We have no clarity on the desires of our heart and it's not good enough to just connect with the emotion and not have a clear vision of exactly what it will take to bring it to fruition.
You have to take the time to ask yourself, what do I really want in life? Am I really happy? What can bring me happiness? How can I start today making these things happen? What will it take? I got my notepad out and started writing and I came up with a pretty impressive list. I marked out the things that didn't coincide with where I'm going now in my life and I kept the things that did. I just think it's the perfect season to live out your hearts desires and personally I'm not getting any younger. I don't want to be anyone else but me, Charmaine. I just want what I want, not anyone else's vision for their life just mines.
Richard Koch wrote: “Everything you want should be yours: the type of work you want; the relationships you need; the social, mental, and aesthetic stimulation that will make you happy and fulfilled; the money you require for the lifestyle that is appropriate to you; and any requirement that you may (or may not) have for achievement or service to others. If you don’t aim for it all, you’ll never get it all. To aim for it requires that you know what you want”
I've made it my business to know exactly what I want out of life and what steps it will take to achieve these things. I'm just a vessel and when I write like this it frees me; because I know somebody will read this and will be inspired to change their own world. My final quote is from Michael Jordan: "I've missed more than 9,000 shots in my career. I've lost more than 300 games. Twenty-six times I've been trusted to take the game-winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life... and that is why I succeed."
My Day 1 to my forever started today and yours can too!! Just get out of the gate and don't be afraid to run. It doesn't matter what place you come in as long as you are running!!
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