So I've mulled it over in my head many times whether this should be a book or blog. So here we are, let my therapy session start. I've always said that for me the greatest expression of healing is writing. Although, I must say anyone who knows me, knows that I love to talk! This blog won't be all about me being fat. It's about my interpretation to life and how I see things. This is my journey, my story, my struggle, and ultimately my triumph. Memoirs of a fat chick is about my life past, present, and future. I want to tell my story in hopes that someone who reads it will find inspiration.
Okay so where do I start. From my earliest memory I was "different" lol. Yes I have a sense of humor that you will see from time to time. I remember being in Kindergarten and although I wasn't fat then I was definitely the tallest in my class and boy did those kids make me pay for it. Taunting and making me feel like a circus freak( no offense to the circus people :) and to no avail I would go home crying to my mom everyday. My mom is one of those superwomen and not because she's my mom and I love her but because even to this day I can't match her parental skills. She juggled a full-time job, husband, and three kids with so much grace and skill. Okay so back to my point, my mom worked as a librarian at the time and she would always bring me material to read about self-esteem and how to get through the rough patches. I was only five but wise beyond my years and it stuck with me. This is where I learned to love myself no matter what ANYBODY thought, simply put I was me and if you didn't like me that was your problem not mines.
Needless to say I became a little too comfortable with myself lol. I continued to grow up and out. I've always been plus size. In all fairness what they consider thick now I was that in the 8th grade but back in 94-95 that was fat. The teasing was real in Junior High then too, but by this time my mom had conditioned me so that I knew what peer pressure was and I was sure of who I was. I had plenty of friends growing up and although I wasn't the "it" girl I was friends with them lol. God blessed me in that way and I had really great friends in my life who didn't care about the extra weight I was packing or what taunts I may have received.
Now by all means let me say this, I never had a problem dating. I had and have the same problem a lot of girls and women have and that's finding the "Right" guy for me. Yes, I was and am fat lol. Something I can definitely smile about now, but it wasn't like the experience that others may have had, men have always found me attractive but whether I should have dated some I'm not sure about that ;). It's all a matter of preference. This blog is about being you and being happy in the skin you are in. I'm definitely not promoting obesity because I'm currently working on resolving my issues with weight. This is my journey to change my life and offer hope to yours.
I learned a long time ago to be happy with where I am and if I'm not happy then do something about it. That is where I am in life. I want to see changes for a better life for myself, my daughter, my entire family and finally for YOU. Though it will be funny at times these stories that you read about my journey are real. This is Memoirs of a Fat Chick get ready to learn, laugh, cry, and experience life with me!!!
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